Law of change - October 2024
Law of change.
Since our childhood, we have been told to perceive and believe, everything in life as real and permanent. Also, in order to change life situations and ourselves, we need to make and effort and control them by ourselves or things will be the same. We believed this as the absolute truth in life, but if we really look carefully, we begin to notice and realize this is not true. This is one of the biggest foundational traps in life that we have built our life on.
Life is a movement that constantly move forward like a river. We call is evolution or growth. Everything in creation has a growing process, continuously changing, evolving and transforming to something else, something higher.
In a person's life, there is the birth of a baby, then that child with time, is no longer a child anymore, as it grows into a teenager and then with time grows in to an adult and then the adult become older, get sick and then dies.
This is a process, a continuous change in our life as identities and body forms grow and evolve with time. Rise, exist and fall, there is a rhythm to it. There is never a permeant state in life and creation. Everything is evolving. Though it takes time for each state to change but the evolution, growth is a constant in all life.
The permanency is an illusion. Everything is temporary; they are in a temporary state of evolving, growing and changing.
Change in Nature
A seed, that breaks free from its container or shell, transform into a sapling, begins to grow one leaf at a time. It never stays in the same form forever. It takes a time for it to grow more and more with leaves and begins to come out, go vertical with a trunk. Day by day, we can see its growth; it is changing; dropping the former form and transforming into a new form, with new leaves and a stronger sturdy trunk. Then when it's reaches it's needed age and form; now it begins to transform itself in to a different form where we see flowers coming out. Flowers grow from one form to another where they bloom. The next state of its from transformation or growth is where the flowers wither and there comes baby fruits that begin to grow bigger. When they are big enough, they ripe and to begin its end of journey where they turn to rot. This is where we see what the tree has being doing all along. It has lived, expressed its purpose and the next step is to create the next generation of children from it as the seeds inside them are what it leaves behind to open way for another generation of children. A beautiful creation and expression in nature. Which had a constant change in each stage of its growth.
Permanency is an illusion
For us, we never see this as a continuation of changes that the tree went through, where not a one form of its state was permanent but within those states it was already transforming itself with time and grew in to its next stage of its own evolution and growth.
The transformation from one state to another is natural in creation, there is no rigidity of permanency. Permanency brings suppression, rigidity and stagnation. Everything in life is in the process of being transformed into something different, something higher, more evolved.
What we believe is permanent is an illusion because in truth it's a temporary expression that is already going through its growth, its evolution and transforming into a new form but we don't pay attention to this process of states changing from one to another and then again to another. We don't understand this or don't pay attention to it but it's continuously happening with all life.
Caterpillar to butterfly
We see this big time in the open is in the alchemical transformation of Caterpillar going into a cocoon and transforming into a butterfly. The cocoon represents a quarantined space where caterpillars form dies and something else rise from it. This is a dark night for the dying caterpillar. This is one form of transformation that we are awed of and thinks, it is only happening for caterpillars only. No! everyone and everything in life goes through changes, growth, evolution in from and mind continuously. Animals, humans, nature, rocks, trees, plants etc., this is natural.
With us, this transformation, or growth happen to us with the world we live in, with the help of external simulations of nature, relationships, life situations.
One unconscious ego identity and its role we took is only useful during a certain period of time, then as we grow, that identity is no longer needed; it needs to die or be deleted so the transformation process takes what's left and transform into a different identity, as well as our body form is transformed with time to a different size and shape too. Every cell in the body goes though birth and death to grow in to this new size and shape. We call it growth or aging.
Survival adaptation identities
When we were born, we take on archetypal identities for our survival as we don't remember who we are and perceive life as a survival situation, where we are separate and alone in this foreign, enemy world. And we need to survive in it, so based on life situations we have agreed to face, we take on or recruit different archetypal identities where some are wounded ego distortive identities and the other identities are of supportive to us to learn and understand this world.
Wounded ego identities
The positive identities serve us in learning understanding the world and interacting with the world so we can live and survive in it. But wounded identities are the ones that, where we perceive life as a threat and believe we are in an enemy world. We are being harmed, victimized unjustly by the gods, world, people and life situations, where traumatized by these life situations our unconscious mind takes on wounded identities. So, it continuously looks at everything in life as a threat to its survival; it's in pain and suffering. Everyone is there to get me, hurt and harm me, kill me and take what I have.
There can be many of these identities that perceive themselves as being victimized and harmed by the world within our unconscious mind, where it takes on different mental archetypes. For example, the invisibility to survive the world; where if I am seen by them, they will hurt me and its better I am invisible, not seen by my biological family or world, so the child takes on the invisible child archetypal identity. Another example of perception and belief is; I am abandoned by the family so it takes on an abandoned child archetypal identity. Or I am orphaned and I don't have a family where it takes on orphaned identity. Another identity we frequently use in life is the dependent, where it learns to depend on the bio family and its personality is a weak, cowardly, powerless character where it always looks to depend on bio family or care givers and then others around it to survive and give up needing to be independent. This is why, most relationship in life is some form of dependency on others where both parties form a co-dependency agreement to exchange resources or roles.
These are few of the common child archetypes, the unconscious mind takes on when it's born to this world without the memory of who it is from its vantage point of perception.
As we grow up with age, in body form and mind, we need to drop these identities as we begin to understand all of these, we perceived and believed while we were children are not really true. But the problem is, these were our core foundational identities that are staying behind the scene in the subconscious mind and they continue to keep running within us, even we become adults. We never leave them behind, where they were with time as we grow up and become mature adults taking on useful, supportive identities.
Identities that need to die
The child identities can no longer be in the driver seat when we reach the teenager level because now the teenager needs to recruit new identities where rebellious child, the explorer, the seeker etc., identities are taken on by the mind. But most of the time, those wounded child identities are still there in the background and come in and takes stage or the drive seat in our unconscious ego mind and drive these children powerless and weak.
Mature adults
This is the case with us, when we are adults too, where we still let the invisible child play its role in us through subconscious or the irresponsible child, or the rebellious teenager, or abandoned child etc. play its role in our adult lives. We are supposed to be mature adults but we still play these roles that we no longer needed in our lives. Because ego was never aware of these roles that are being played in our ego mind behind the scene. They are stored in the subconscious mind and only get triggered when needed when facing life situations.
Sometimes, we see in us these identities playing their roles and we are so powerless to stop them taking over our mind and acting out or they have already played the role and now we have to pay the price for those actions.
We see the adult child in many men we interact with us or invisible child that is in adult where they don't get attention and are ignored by the world etc. How many of these unconscious roles we have hidden within our subconscious and gets triggered, activate to run these destructive roles within us.
What we didn't realize or are not aware of, is how to let go of these ego identities and their roles we have acquired since childhood and why we still keep them in our subconscious without deleting them and evolve with our body with our age as we mature?
Problem is
We have believed these identities as real and permanent in our mind. That belief keeps them within our subconscious instead of being deleted when their purpose is fulfilled. These were temporary recruitments, with age and when their purpose is done need to be fired or deleted. Neutralized. We need to realize this truth, so we can begin to fire these identities that we hired. No one has a permanent role in our mind or in our lives as all are changing, growing, evolving and moving up.
Time to let go
These were temporary identities that stayed with us and was useful to us at that age to interact with life, world out there then with time we need to delete these identities and begin to recruit new, evolved, mature identities as needed to match our age and our evolved, changed body form. We can't hate these identities as they fulfilled their role at one point in our life, so we are grateful to them. Whoever they are and how harmful they were to us; they were part of us.
We need to understand this, self-realize this truth. Also, the next problem we face is that these unconscious ego identities don't want to die, to get deleted as they are attempting to survive in our mind, believing that they need to keep living, keep running and keep feeding our mental energies to survive. While causing so much harm to us.
Unconscious ego identities controlling life
The problem is most of us don't believe life and creation as something that is continuously in a state of growth, evolution, moving forward like a stream, flowing forward with time going upward in to different time and space dimensions, vibrations.
So, unconscious mind, ego wants to control life, world, life events by itself believing all of creation to be in a permanent state where ego needs to get involved in changing them to match its own agenda.
Unconscious Ego don't know or understand that everything in life is running according to a certain cosmic plan where all of our souls has signed up to participate in this planet earths evolutionary game. Where all of our lives are been governed and moved forward in a certain cosmic or divine order. All life is being evolved by God, or nature. And this process takes time and we all need to experience life and go through certain learning experiences to change and evolve.
But unconscious ego without knowing this truth, is in a hurry to change things according to its own plan where, it goes to control ourselves, life situations, relationships and the world according to its own planned agenda.
Gods plan
What ego does is against Gods plan and Gods timelines, or we call it anti-life plan, which has its own reverse, distortive energies and vibrations.
This is when our soul begins to intervene as part of our evolutionary journey, and cosmic plan. To get us back in to Gods plan or divine plan and allow us to evolve in a certain way where we have to face life. Not run way or escape life situations and ignore these unconscious ego identities and their disruptive perceptions, thinking and actions that interfere with soul's plan.
Our soul and life begin to bring in life situations that are painful and harmful to us or to ego and its perception these life situations are all against it. These situations show us our own inner distortive programming's that projected, created this world and these life situations. And also, our destructive ego identities and their own weaknesses, their addictions and expressions they have been thinking and acting out that hurt us and the word.
We need to experience all of this specially, feel the pain. The pain of betrayal, pain of loss, pain of our own weakness and cowardliness. In desperation, we ask ourselves questions. Is there another way to life than this way of living in fear and doubt. Is there a way to change ourselves where we are free from these destructive identities and their actions, desires, that control us like we are their slaves.
We have to get stuck, get hurt, loose things and people. Experience the pain of being dependent on people, for them to play certain roles for us while they expect us to play these slave roles over and over just for us to survive. Just to be free from these fears.
Through these experiences, God, our soul asks us to observe, look at our own lives to see and ask us, why do we keep the same patterns and not move forward. Why are we holding on to all these as if our life depends on them. Not freeing ourselves from painful life situations and our own weakness.
Why do we keep holding on to old destructive patterns, programming and identities without changing them, letting them go and move on to higher more evolved form of selves. Where we are evolving and more mature with age in life, instead of still acting like immature, self-destructive children.
We have seen in us or out there, where physically mature men or women who needs to take responsibility for themselves for their actions are playing shadow victim and victimizer games with the word and with themselves. Where they blame, push guilt and shame to themselves and the world. They don't want to take responsibility for their own perceptions thinking and actions. Why?
As these experiences in life becomes too painful, we begin to question whether everything we believed in life is the truth or is there another way for us to be free of this pain. This is when we begin to self-realize, receive a higher more evolved truth.
We have to allow ourselves to be taken through this natural evolutionary process just like other beings in nature but we can't because our unconscious ego won't allow us to let go and evolve. It wants to keep the old, keep stagnating in the same patterns as it believes everything in life is permanent and real. To ego, life and creation is just a mechanical thing. With no conscious awareness but a chaotic mess where there is absolutely no conscious evolution.
Ego has to be the one in control. Planning, controlling life as it wants to. So that life is under its control.
Gods plan has a way to make us conscious, aware of this living breathing natural creation and align us to it and let us evolve with it consciously. For that God has this tricky way of getting us to drop, let go of these destructive programming, perceptions, thinking and making these unconscious identities, be deleted and making mind conscious. That is through pain and suffering! When the pain is too much, we actually begin to drop these identities, their roles and choose a better higher truth-based identities, and get ourselves re-programmed. This is the way that God and soul make us align with the natural process of life where we go through maturity, growth, evolution of both our mind and body.
Dark nights
This is what a dark night is. The aim of a dark night is to evolve us to our next level of evolution, for that identity that no longer needed but still unconscious ego is controlling and are holding on to. So, every identity that needs to be removed we will experience some kind of a dark night. This can be an experienced for few hours or a day or a weak or years. I have experienced a dark night for seven years to be free from a co-dependent relationship that I thought I can't live without.
Alchemy in the dark night
The alchemical changes that life bring to us through dark nights are for us to evolve, transformed alchemically to a new higher identity embodiment. During this process, we complain, we cry and try to escape this process but so many reasons we can't. It's like we have been quarantined, weakened and also stop others from helping us to escape, run way from facing life situation and experiencing it. The raw pain and suffering are needed to be experienced by the ego. Thats the plan. So, we hate and resist this experience but this a God blessing to us. We don't see or understand this as we go through this process screaming, yelling, cursing everything and everyone including gods. But this will happen to each and every one of us as part of the Golds plan.
Some with courage and desire to be free, surrender and begin to be open to truth to see if there can be another way to free from this pain, while others continue to play victim and wanting to take revenger from whoever is hurting them, declaring this life and experience is the truth and they never want to change out of it. If we are this adamant, life will keep bringing us different life situations to force us to change.
Because we all have to go through the natural evolutionary process, that we all came to play on this planet. And whatever ego perceive and believe in, and attempt to control, take us in an anti to life path and a process needed to dismantled and that ego needs to evolved too to a conscious ego. So that ego too become evolved.
P.S. I have been away from writing and posting for a long time as, I too went through a massive life altering dark night with so many, mini dark nights within it. It has been seven years since I wrote something about my experiences. My English is bit rusty at the moment. So, be patient with me, as I begin to stumble to stand up.
With Love, Pavithra.